Not Expecting the Unexpected

I know its been a while but thats because not much has  changed. One thing I wanted to mention is that I am getting a new job, on call 24/7. Its going to be interesting for sure.
So my update is that on a whim the other day I decided to try on some old jeans that I haven't been able to wear in about a year and a half. I was able to put them on  ut they were a little snug. I have to wonder f I am just delusional or if I am actually losing weight because I have no clue what I am doing right hhaahahaahhaa!!!

"How hard the butter is depends on how soft the bread is."

Food for Thought

So I have been bad the past few days. My friend took me out to lunch a couple days ago.  I had the thickest burger I've had in probably 10 years. Spicy fries on the side.
Today I cut up some potatoe wedges and cooked them with parsley, minced onion and garlic, salt, pepper, and oregano. Oooook so I've goofed up and let myself stray. I am going to get back on track though.
My convictions from this week might have led me to this next part...

I have had this chili-craving fad for about 2 or 3 weeks now and I've changed how I make it a couple times. So the first time:
1 can of chili
About a cup of fritos
About a quarter of a cup of a yellow onion chopped
A dollop of sour cream
About half a cup of cheese. (I know, thats alot, just hear me out).
I would cook the onions and chili in the microwave then add the cheese, fritos, and sour cream. Its probably really bad for me but dang that was tasty. So... I ran out of cheese one time when I made some that was cheeseless.Now my current fixings is alot better. Now I make it like this:
1 can of chili
1/2 a cup of fritos
About a tablespoon of sour cream
No cheese!
Oh and i use about 1/4th of a nice sized yellow onion now. Its sooooo much better without cheese.
So it fills me up and its not as bad for me as it was the firat few times I made it.

Tonight I got the recipie from my grandmother for this incredible chocolate pudding she makea around chriatmas. Sugar free pudding (so its healthier AND my mom can eat it too)  and cool whip that i believe is fat free... maybe its sugar free... I can't remember now. Anyways
Its gonna be like Chrisas at grandmas! Only I am putting peanut butter chips on top. I will post a picture later this week when I make it, cause honestly... who DOESN'T love a chocolate pie?!

Daily thought: Ever wish life was like a recipie? Imagine substatuting your fat girl sweatpants for those skinny jeans! Oh yeah!!! Dream I might, but that would be awesome.

Progress vs. Failure

Ive been thinking alot lately about what success really is.  Its kind of complicated yet very simple. Just like the night needs the day, success needs failure. See, without one, the other would simply not exist. We have to fail every now and then in order to know how to succeed.

To me, I guess there's different ways I feel about success. When I go without eating fast food, thats an accomplishment; no matter how small. So I think my rambling is basicly about having our own ways of making success for ourselves. No one but our "self" knows what success is.

For me, success was putting fresh onion in my chili today instead of cheese. It is about drinking more water with that nice water bottle I got from my aunt. Also, its about not getting fast food for the past 2.5 weeks.

I think I have lost a little bit of weight over the past month or two. My jeans aren't as snug as they used to be when they come out of the dryer. I'm starting to see how all the little things I've done in the past 2 months have added up.
SUCCESS!

Conclusion: Don't let someone elses success become your own goal. Make your own success and watch how far you will go!

Making commitments

I just got this water bottle in the mail from my aunt. I am gonna start taking it everywhere with me and drinking as much water as I can.... we will see what happens. I got some new hair stuff from her too to try out... I am really excited about all of this.

Daily thoughts: Baby steps get you where you want to go, it just takes a little more time.

Leftovers

Oh my goodness! I don't know if y'all wanna hear this but it makes me laugh...

My thighs hurt every time I sit down on the toilet.... Its left-over's from yesterday... the good kind of leftovers LoL. Not the kind you stick in a tupperware dish and shove in the fridge. Hahaha!

Lastnight I did my nails for spring (I know, possibly going overboard with this whole spring thing but I am SO ready for warmer weather) and I like how they turned out ♥  Pink with white polkadots!

Also, got my hair chopped again. It's not quite as short as I want it but that can be fixed.

"Left-over's are good for you!"

Day 1

I have been putting this blog off for almost 2 months. I really wanted to put up a picture for my "current" look and weight and what not but I can add that later.

So I started my change weeks ago but today I did my first "workout" (if thats what it can be called).
I did 10 lunges, 10 pushups (girl style), 20 jumping jacks, 10 crunches, and almost a minute long wall sit. Holy fuck am I out of shape! (Round is a shape however).

My legs are tired. Really tired. Hhaahahaa! I am not going to expect anything super, just going to take it one day at a time. I realized that by not expecting anything is good because I can accomplish anything, no matter how great or small, and still feel accomplished. The fact that my legs are tired is actually a good thing. I get to go spend the next 5 hours standing and walking around at work... woopie!

Conclusion for today: No thinking required. You see something you want to do, don't think about it because you give your mind time to make excuses, just do it!